This was the second time Suzanne’s heart was beating fast just like it had when they first met. That afternoon was ordinary but rich with possibilities. As Denise walked by, her tethered sweater wrapped around her waist gently touched Suzanne’s arm. But it was not the touch that caused her to look up, it was Denise’s scent that touched her senses indescribably.
The combination of sweet and spicy sprinkled in patchouli sent a heat rushing through her body. It was an uncommon experience for her just like their romance in the years to come would be. But this afternoon as she sat alone in a dimmed room of the apartment they shared that became their home, Suzanne had thoughts that raged within her, a tortured conflict of “I should leave her but I can not see my life without her” lingered. Suzanne’s mind swirled and ached provoking sadness because the only real possibility was having to let Denise go after 13 years.
Suzanne recalled finding the letters that were written to Denise from another woman. Denise was sentimental about certain things like important letters and gifts. She hung onto them forever. The letters were full of graphic passion and words of love that they had shared and hoped to share again. The letters went back five years and were never sent to their home but delivered at Denise’s work address. Even worse was the letter that Suzanne found that Denise had written to her lover but had not yet mailed. That letter was the dagger that cut Suzanne’s flesh deep piercing her heart written 28 hours ago.
I just finished watching a movie where the female in a marriage remained loyal to her husband but all throughout their marriage the husband cheated on his wife by having numerous affairs. Every time I watch or hear of someone cheating on their spouse or partner it saddens me. Why does it sadden me?
It saddens me because a person involved in a relationship who is committed and giving their love has been betrayed by the one they love. This saddens me.
The lies. The deceit. The betrayal. The hurt. The confusion. Why does a person cheat going through all the hoops of infidelity only to not escape discovery. Then they decide to tell their spouse or partner out of guilt and shame to further put salt on the wound of the person they said they cared for and loved.
Why not just be an adult and leave the marriage or relationship before cheating. Even better, why not have a conversation before the cheating with your spouse or partner to work through issues or to part ways.
I’m not saying the person who cheats is a bad person. I’m not saying that they should be judged by me. What I am judging is the behavior that is so hurtful toward someone that has been told that they love them and the person who does not see marriage as a sacred union.
If you have any thoughts, don’t hold back share them. Oh and no I have not been cheated on in many years but I do know what that feels like.
What if a person treated touch as a precious action only to be indulged when the language of “in love” is spoken, heard and received.
What if looking into someone’s eyes past the point of a friendly gesture would be allowed only to get the attention of someone you want to know much deeper than surface, much longer than a lifetime.
What if tasting was seen as a sacred feast only to be had with the one who has captured your heart for eternity.
What if hearing the voice of the one you love was like a serenade, an offering given to you reminding you of a warm summer night experiencing the cool sprinkling of a beautiful fountain.
What if the fragrance of someone caught your attention devastating your senses with the fresh scent of baked cookies,
bacon, grits and eggs cooked to perfection; they smell like home.
Why not save the sensuality of the senses for the one who knows more about you than those who were the closest to you, that person makes you smile from your eyes to your cheeks and holds you through every hard time and every exuberant celebration.